20131119

and, hi, then.

Wow I think I just gone too much from this blog... and then sorry if I wrote too much rants now but--

I think I hate myself.
I really spending too much time on webdesigning but when I look the results, it's nothing. I really have a new idea but I think I don't get enough for it. I think, how if I just ended up with sold no themes? It's like, I really give up with this life. I really 'want' to stop to procrastinate anything and then I can spend too much time for webdesigning, but: a) I have no times forthis; b) I don't think if anyone know my themes, so I think it just make no result; and c) I think my ideas was killed by times.

And for university thing (oh I know, it would be on 2 years again, it's really long I know), I really want to be graphic designer or architect and then I'll got a free overseas study, but I know now if life isn't easy as that. Making money at here isn't that easy-- when you just become architect or something art, you'll got paid with a little fee. I think I'm happy with it but I know my parents won't like it very much. And then, after reading this blogpost, I'm afraid that when I'm going to something art, I didn't worth it. I'm afraid that myself just worthed in something academic subject...